Working on me and letting it play out

[cbtdad]

I just went into her room to apologize for interrupting her
I informed her that I've decided to move out for a couple weeks
She once again said she didn't want to talk about this at 1am, but the time isn't going to make a difference. I'm so tired of living in this house like this. It's been 6 weeks and even though we get along much better I just feel like a roommate and friend. That's all
I know that I had my huge part in our marriage getting to this place. I realize I've made her "numb" and made her feel like she can't trust that I will change.
I wonder that myself. Can I change? I will continue to work on me and my issues.
Because I don't want to bring this into any more relationships in my life
So although I will work on me, I just feel like I can't do it here for now