D5 has so much energy and is just always with a smile on her face. We went to a pet shop so she could see the puppies. This may be on a list of things for her once o\I get into my new place. She loved every minute of it. We also went to a movie and this time she stayed awake and had a good time. She is the sweetest little thing and you can not help but be in a good mood when she is with you.
D17 is doing okay, but I think the issues with her mother are taking a toll on her. She seems to be in a daze the past several days and broke down a couple of times today. She is doubting herself and feels like she is not going any where fast. I may have added to the issue as I try to help her and "fix" things.
I try hard to just listen and validate but I do have an issue with trying to hard to tell her what fixes she can try as options. Her mixed signals to me also make it a challenge at times when I don't say anything she gets frustrated, and other times I talk to much. She really needs a mothers touch , but that just does not exist right now with all the tension between them. Grrr, I just want to give her everything and take her away from all of the pain.
I do think that while outwardly she has accepted the pending divorce of her parents, that she may be holding a lot inwardly that is breaking her down. But what do I know.? I am fighting some of my own demons, and may be holding things in that will blow some day. I still have this nagging feeling that I got over the pain, and struggles too fast. Not sure why I worry about this so much of late. But I do.
But overall the day was fun and we got some things done.
I am looking to a good day tomorrow and I appreciate you checking in Vanilla.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
