My stbx had a bit of an outburst tonight which was interesting. I asked her if she wanted to join me and the kids for a meal tomorrow. She said that she would rather I just took the girls..she then began by saying that she knew that I was still hoping to get back with her. She said that she thinks that over the last few months, I have become a better person than I ever have been in the marriage and wonders if it is because we are no longer together. She says she likes me alot and even loves me but not in the way I want. She said that she has fallen out of love. She feels that it would be easy to take me back the way I am now but cannot put herself through anymore hurt if it all went back to how it was. She wants to schedule time to talk to me alone as we only ever discuss the kids and this whole situation has been massive for both of us....
So it appears my 180 has been working even though I haven't actually tried to change. I have just been kind to her and helped her where I can. My D8 thinks I am much nicer now and loves being with me.
What now though? We are friends but she either doesn't feel in love or is keeping me at bay. Is she conflicted? She wants to remain friends for the sake if the kids...really? We have years of being 'friends'asthe kids are still young..am I in for a long fight to win her heart?
I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
