My third post - please be nice

[collin]

Well. She just left. Now it's time to walk the walk. Tonight will be our first night apart, separated if you will. I really don't know how I feel. I feel sad. But at the sametime I know the way we were going was a collision course for disaster. I love my W and I want our M to grow. It wasn't going to grow the way it was going. So, in that sense, I am thankful.

D just left to go spend the night with her grandma, sooo...sitting here alone in the house. It's an odd feeling knowing that she won't be coming back here tonight.

We woke up early this morning so I can go do my 10k. She and D went with me. We came back here and I fell asleep. Her and D went out. They came home and my W and I sat on the couch for a while, I put my arm around her and she leaned up against me dozing in and out. It felt good holding her for those few minutes.

I just need to collect my thoughts a while to see how I'm going to maneuver these next 6 months.