oops, I left out my inner self. I am still single and have no intention of entering a relationship at this point. I have dated a man for 9 months, last year and it messed me up. I carry many ghost from the past and can' t seem to control my fears and anxiety. i'm ok with friends but not in a relationship. ( weird) I know I can love again but I am very insecure and feel unworthy when my insecurities rise. I have trust and believe issues. My view of being a couple as also changed. In my younger days, I was looking for a life partner to build a family and future with but now, I have those things and I am still very family oriented therefor, I find it difficult to bring someone new into the mix. for the most part, I am very please with everything. I still get sad sometimes. I take a look back and soon realise that our lives is way better this way. I' m still growing and battleing a few of my inner demons ( anger, anxiety and depression ). This latest relationship set me back a bit. Eventho I am the one who ended it. So, like I said, relationship? not now. I am not ready nor want to right now.
