That's exactly what I am trying to do. Not focus on that. I am just trying to focus on repairing myself first so that I don't bring this to our M or a new relationship. I know what I want in a M. I also know that at times we have definitely had that. I've done a lot of damage to destroy that with my controlling and verbally abusive ways. I understand that now and it's something I own. Last time we were in a bad place in our marriage she found another man. I think because of that I put a lot of worry into that possibly happening again and put myself on a "timeline" I guess its self protection. Even though I know it's something I can't control, it's almost like I would rather sabotage my R before she could hurt me that bad again
M 37 W 30 S 7 Together 10 years Married 9 years BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day) I moved to apartment 1/11/13 W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13 Peicing: 6/3/13 Reconciled: 7/2013 BD2: 4/20/16 still working on it
