Oh My goodness this week has been so busy, I have not had time to post about my weekend or catch up on anyone elses threads. This is my goal today and tomorrow!

Our weekend was wonderful. We had great conversations on the drive there and back. I was worried about this because I do not do well on long car trips, I get tired and cranky, but I did great. Heck we did great!!

This is the first time I have seen "our" mutual friend since right before we separated three years ago. It was wonderful he hugged me and told me he was so glad we were back together. He then proceeded to tell me that he didn't like Ow. (I get the impression no one liked her very much) hee hee hee.

I think this weekend was a definite stepping stone to the R we are starting with each other. Xh and I had long heart to heart's after everyone went to bed, some times it wasn't until after 5am. Needless to say we did not get very much sleep!

It sounds like we are on the same track with life and our R. Xh asked questions about my past R's, I reacted like I have done before, was very cautious with what I did tell him. Our R is going so smoothly, I do not have the constant fear he is going to get hurt by my words and run away. On the other hand I want to share everything with him, I just do not want him to ever feel like he has to try to live up to the other men I have dated. I am not sure how men react to hearing details about glamorous trips, intimate details, and such. I know how I would have reacted before I started Db'ing, things like this made me crazy! Gave me the feeling I was living in someone elses shaddow, trying to constantly do better than the one before. I dont want him to ever feel like he has to live up so someone else's memory. If anything is true the other men I have dated have had to try and live up to my memories of Xh and thats why they have done the things for me they have done.

On our way home Sunday we stopped in the subdivisions we are wanting to buy a house in and looked at a few more houses. The house we went in did not give me the warm "I'm home" feeling like the house we bid on a month ago gave me. Still looking I guess. Xh real-estate agent is not as enthusiastic about selling his house as he was in the beginning. He told Xh that he has not shown it in over a week and that the next option for them to do is to lease it out. So it is just me but is this a bad idea? If they lease it that would be the opposite of what him and Ow want. From what I understand, the purpose of them selling their house is to break the tie that binds them together. Xh asked my opionion on this and I honestly didn't have one. I asked him what he thought, his words to me " Well Halo, we still have what 4 months until your lease is up so how about I just keep it on the market for the next few months, we can still look for our house."

Xh is going out of town this weekend with the guys, its going to be the first weekend we have not spent with each other in almost 2 months. As sad at that is, I think its a good thing. Gives us time to miss each other. LOL

Thanks to all for checking on me.
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Halo Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.