Confidence. It seems like your W is drawn to you when you're confident and you show that you can make it with or without her.
And Natus, you can't let your wife complete you. Forget Jerry Mcguire. You complete you and you must give your life purpose.
When we give our spouses so much power, we live in a lot of fear. And fear makes us unattractive and fear makes us spin.
I have a feeling that your sitch will change when you let go of the fear. But then my worry would be that your W seems to want what she can't have. This is something that you would have to address, but perhaps not just yet.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.