Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 2

[PsySara]

SadHub:
I've been reading Cherry's threads when I get a breaks here and there, her story is VERY similar to mine. I think at this point the main emotions I feel are frustration and anger towards H. He's is being given a gift, a patient wife who is willing to give him a second chance after the biggest betrayal one can do to their spouse. instead of manning up he is wallowing in his guilt and deciding if he can love me again. Say what?! It should be me deciding that and whether or not to give our marriage a second chance.

That's what sticks in my craw, that he is acting like the wounded party and licking his wounds. He just needs to get over himself and grow up already! I want my kids to be raised in a loving home with two dedicated and loving parents who can model a good marriage. If I have to drag his stupid, stubborn butt into that picture, I will. I am feeling pretty spunky today and have been keeping myself busy. Tomorrow I have a session scheduled with my DBing coach, I plan to ask for some direction with regards to whether or not to hold off on the intensive until H wants to join or if I should just do it on my own. It's a lot of money but it's cheaper than a divorce.

I also will be going to my residency graduation tomorrow. It's pretty sad that H will not be there, this is a HUGE milestone in my life. He didn't offer to come, just wants to work and make gobs of money. He must think you can buy back time or something.