14 days of sheer hell, part 7

[DDJ]

Thank you all for your input. I appreciate your viewpoints.

However, i signed up for monogamy. I almost fell into the same trap of infidelity. Darnit, I broke my virginity in an adulterous affair. But just because it happened does not mean it is right.

How have we progressed as a society that the sanctity of M and being with one person no longer has meaning. If we accept emotional abuse, then we must accept infidelity? No.

There is a right thing and a wrong thing to do. I had the audacity to ask my WW this question earlier...

If you believed that I cheated on you, would you D me? She paused for 2 seconds and then answered yes. I returned with... You have given me every reason to believe that you have cheated and nothing to make me believe that you have not - this is why i am divorcing you.

I guess the acceptance of infidelity is based on beliefs, everyone is different. I believe that infidelity signals the end of a M. This is how i grew up, with Christian principles, such as stealing, adultery and murder being wrong.

I need to fix myself, but it does not mean that I cannot fix myself if we're divorced. As for D standing in the way of reconciling. Well that's really the purpose of D. I do not want to reconcile with someone that has betrayed me and her son. Torn our family apart for her selfish ways. I don't know if i will take her back in a few years time. I do not know what the future holds, but i must take the right action now.

If my S asks me one day, why did you and mom get D'd, I will say that your mother never kept her vows, neither did I. She chose infidelity and I never really loved her. It had to end. It was the right thing to do.
I am taking the right action, even though i feel differently.