Had kid swop over breakfast today. It was the first time in about 2 months that I have sat down at a table with the x.

Interaction with him was limited and mostly initiated by him. I was in a rather good mood cuz a sweet lady had complimented on my outfit. I goofed around with kid and kid got very uptight when I told her that we were going to meet a cute guy later. Poor kid. She was very worried that I was going to introduce her to a boyfriend.

She wanted to know how old he was and if he had any children. I kidded her for a little and enjoyed watching the x squirm before he figured out that it was a boy.

This set me wondering if the x had gone back on our agreement and had introduced TP and her children to kid. And then told kid not to tell me. Kid is still highly stressed and is still pulling her hair out. Something is making her unhappy and stressing her out.

X was cordial and rather chatty. But after the overseas trip incident and kid's hair-pulling issue, and of course, after the whole ordeal that was BD and D, I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop. I feel snappy, even if I try my hardest not to show it.

Tbh, there are changes to x. He sounds like he's read from the dbing script (when he's not going berserk). He wears a watch and proper shoes when he's out, damn it. I don't think he's worn a watch in all the time that I have know him. He has spent more time doing fun things with kid after the D than in the whole of kid's existence.

These are things that I have always wanted and which would have thrilled me to bits.

I hate that he's doing all these after the D. We weren't enough for him to make the effort.


Tp is probably still very much in his life. Guessing that she's the one who has been providing him with ideas of where to take kid as the ideas were the same ones that I had tagged from a female magazine.

And I wouldn't be surprised if he has moved in with her as my mails are passed to me weeks late. I will be glad to finally have all letters sent to my new place when I close the deal.

You can call me Dory/ Grl.

As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"

It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.