Journaling- yesterday was good as soon as I got my head out of my butt!! LOL. I know its long. SORRY
Busy day @ work w/ end of month, Xh called several times to talk and to let me know he was running ahead of schedule with his deliveries. I don’t remember if I said this before but Xh’s parent’s 32nd anniversary was yesterday, they invited me to go out to eat with them. There was a possibility “we” were not going to be able to make it because Xh’s longest day at work is Thursdays. Things turned out great.
Just my luck, the family wanted to eat on the opposite side of town from where I live. Oh well that’s what I get for moving far away from them I guess. LOL I rushed home from work, took a shower, and tried to look as stunning as possible in the amount of time given. I think it worked because when I showed up at the restaurant Xh’s jaw literally dropped, he told me that I looked “hot and gorgeous”.
As I was getting on the main road from my apartment I called Xh to let him know I had just left. Told him more than likely I would be stuck in traffic and would be late. I asked him if he just wanted me to meet up with them later on that evening, I told him that I would want them to be waiting on me to eat. He told me “don’t be ridiculous and come on”. I’m trying to figure out if I said this because I meant it or if I needed reassurance he wanted me there… I really did mean it but I also wanted to know he wanted me there, just don’t know which one was most important.
I stopped on my way and got my X-MIL & FIL an anniversary card. It was simple, not too mushy but in the inside I wrote “ MIL & FIL, happy 32nd anniversary, Thank you for sharing this special day with me, Love Halo” Do ya’ll think this was too much? Funny thing about the card is that Xh also bought a card and signed my name on his card to his parents. Does this mean we are on the track of being “Us” again?
Dinner was wonderful, great conversation. His mom, dad, sister & BIL really made me feel wanted and welcomed. I am so pleased about this. When Xh and I were first married his mom did not like me very much. I think it was because she felt as though I was “taking her little boy away from her”. To be honest with you guys I acted like a spoiled brat and was intimidated by her. Always thinking she had an ulterior motive for calling or asking “us” or him to do things for or with them. I was a real B*#*h to her and complained to H all the time because they would stop by unannounced. There were a lot of double standards on my part in our M when it came to our involvement with family and friends. Looking back I could kick myself in the hiney, but you know what they say hind-site is 20/20.
Xh took the day off today so he stayed the night with me last night. Let me tell you how great it was waking up with him in my bed this morning. I caught myself lying in bed cuddling with him until the last possible minute. While I was getting ready I stared at him several times, he looked so peaceful lying there. I woke him up after I got ready by kissing him on his back and cheek. He woke up in such a great mood. Yeah!!! Xh hates traffic so I warned him the traffic to his house would be bad. He didn’t seem too worried about it.
One more concern: We talked yesterday about Easter (xh asked me a few weeks ago to join him and his family for Easter), he asked me if I was going to miss going to my Grandparents house for Easter. I said no, I have been there for the last few years. Things kind of got tense so I said, “besides the fact I can’t wait to eat all the good food your family has at their family functions.” Then started listing the special dishes they have there. He laughed and agreed, then said that he cannot wait to taste my grandmother Dr. Pepper Ham; he said he has been missing it. Whew, that was a close one.
He cancelled plans for Saturday because a DJ job came up, He did ask me if he could come to my house after he finished up. Around 1 am or so, I did not get upset or anything just told him that I did not see a problem with it. He has asked me what I was going to do and I told him I would probably go out with a GF of mine.

Did I handle things correctly? Any advise would be appreciated.
Hugs and Prayers

Halo Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.