Barb, I'm glad to come here and read that you are feeling better. You are so lucky that Josh has been there to support and help you while you've been under the weather.
I'm very happy to read that Ashley's heading to a better job w/a better salary. She'll do well and will move up the ladder in no time. After all, you are her biggest supporter and you will be there to listen and provide advice along the way if she needs it.
I hope things are okay w/your father. Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.