Oh make no bones about it ... now surely is not the time, even if she magically snapped to and said all the right things .... its about actions as far as I am concerned and actions that go well past this year. I have zero intention/interest in that right now. I only post here to keep up with the story/novel .. maybe one day it will provide something out of this mess.
China .... ok, the company I work for has strong China ties, they have a location in China. The area I am in charge of is new territory for them, however their approach is the same for what they do ... they want to buy some China-based equipment for what I do here, I am pretty against it so the President and CEO want me to go there to see the stuff in action, basically selling me on what they want to spend their money on. I do not need to see it, I know what they want to use (Works great for 2 years then pooof insta-junk) ... but free trip to China ... sure why not. The CEO went early and was going to have me go with him ... We are to talk this week or next, its still in the works just not sure when.
I have total faith in God, I am just torn at the moment. A small part will always want W and the family I had ... my logical brain says that ship sailed and sunk off the coast of MLC, it would be far easier to start a new R with someone else than continue to waste the energy on the M, all the damage done I am not so certain I want to open those boxes and deal with that pain again ...... beauty of it is .. I don't have to today, so I continue on allowing God to do His thing and trust He will guide me as He always has.
