WAW,still angry, am I indifferent or detached now?

[PsySara]

I also had to revisit who I was when WH fell in love with me. Ironically I was less mature and more selfish at that time, so there are definite traits I will not be returning to. However I was also more spontaneous and confident. The sponteniety would be great to retrieve but it will be tempered with the reality of having 3 small children.

Honestly I think I am a better person now than I was when we first married. WH, on the other hand, hasn't change much and that's not good. He still wants to live the bachelor lifestyle and seems uninterested in truly embracing the husband and father role. Part of Dbing was me realizing that I would not settle for my WH as he is but rather work on me and decide if I would even give him a second chance. If he comes back to the marriage I will only consider him if he does the work necessary to grow as a person. I will not stay with a mental embryo. At the end of this particular chapter (and I am mid-chapter presently) I will either be better and alone or better and partnered, regardless I will be better.