My third post - please be nice

[collin]

This morning I snooped. I shouldn't of. But I did. Now I feel even more lost and confused. I read a text message between my W and one of her friends (girl) and they were talking about me/us. One message said something to the extent of, he's handling it a lot better now, he's treating it as a 6 month break and not me (her) leaving <---this last word I can't remember I know it's a matter of semantics if she said leaving, splitting, breaking up, etc...

So that one left me scratching my head...

Then she did say in a later text, "i think this time apart has made me appreciate him more"

That one was nice...but still the first one really threw me for a loop. I had to put her phone down because she walked back into the house. I know I shouldn't read anything into and only worry about things I can control (ME!) But one can't help it...I don't know how to feel. Last week I was so positive, now I just feel down and negative like, is she considering this a split up and not a break? I just want to know what she's thinking. I can't exactly ask her, "Sooooo...was going through your phone this morning and saw your texts. Could you please explain those?" So, here I am wondering.

They say not all who wander are lost. I, however, am lost.