bb, she is doing all of this to get you to write half a dozen posts wondering what this means. Does she still have feelings? Will she come out of the fog and want to return to the M? Look at how you're reacting.
Why is she doing all of this? To get you to feel exactly how you feel! And to keep you attached exactly as sandi says.
And you are. The "I don't have any hope for R" isn't true. People say that when they are looking for others to reassure them, 'sure you do bb!' they reply, and you get the comfort you need. Additionally all of your posts hinge on WW, what her facial expressions were that day, or which way she looked first before she crossed the street.
It's ok. I still believe that it takes 90 days and a second bomb drop before you can really detach. 90 days of hell, then something that pierces the denial that we all go through in which we just can't comprehend things not working out when we want it to soooo much and it looks like they're hurting. But when the other shoe drops and we see that despite their pain, they continue down this course, and something happens that cannot be denied...that's when the next phase of the journey begins.
For me it took a serious wake up call. I thought I was doing a great job DBing. I was doing 180s, GAL, being mysterious, distant yet easy going, etc. WAW was starting to open up, ask questions about me, express remorse, etc. I challenge you to read from 8/24/14 to 9/6/14 and see how it panned out.
What similarities did you see between your WAW and what mine was telling me? I ask because I hope sharing this part of my life will help you recognize a few things and take steps to detach and protect yourself.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
