Your H does sound like he's still in the fog; he's so confused and all over the place.
There is a lot of guilt. That is why they can't look us in the eyes and why they always seem so angry with us. Mindreading here, but even if your H still loves you, he would never admit it because what kind of person does all these horrid things to someone he loves?
At the risk of being obnoxiously pushy, I am going to post cherry's link here.
A lot of what you are going through, she has gone through as well. I thought it will be useful for you to see how things have progressed for her and she may be able to commiserate with you better. Your Hs seem to be reading from the same scripts at times.
And like you, Cherry, is one hot sassy mama.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
