Hi Kyler, I am sorry to hear of your struggle. It is difficult to get the spouses out of our heads at first. Every little thing can be a trigger. It is okay to miss your W but don't get too caught up in it.
I know how scary it is to lose someone whom we love dearly and not be able to do anything about it. I know how that fear can punch you in the gut and take your breath away. But you need to control that fear.
But Kyler, in our need to win our spouses back/ not lose our spouses, a lot of times, we lose ourselves instead. I realise that in our ordeals, the fight should be to save ourselves first. You know the thing about putting on your own oxygen mask before helping others? Same principle.
Is there anything that you can do for yourself to take your mind off everything?
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.