Sorry for the delayed response. It's been a busy couple of days. I did read your post yesterday, and I appreciate you offering to be my accountability partner. I did look up a few articles and books on codependency, but I think right now what I would like to do is read about how to move forward. I've found two books that I plan to purchase and start reading this week:
1. When He Leaves, By Kari West 2. Runaway Husbands, By Vikki Stark
I think this is where I need to start. I honestly want to completely let go of him so that I can start truly moving forward with my life. I want to stop worrying about him, and I want to start putting myself first. Honestly I put up with a lot in the past year, and he took advantage of that, and I just believe that I deserve better, and I have faith in God that He will give me better if I continue to depend on Him. My H hurt me in ways I never imagined possible. I've had many ups and downs, and I will continue to do so, but I have to keep reminding myself that I deserve better. He's filed the paperwork, and soon I will get a letter from the court saying it's been finalized. I will always have the hope that his heart will change, and that one day he will realize this was all a huge mistake, but one thing I cannot do is cling on to that hope so tight that it prevents me from taking care of myself. I just hope I can actually do it, I'll continue posting and reading on the forum to gel me get through this extremely difficult time of my life.
