Toast - burnt or just right

[rich4j]

Have been catching on some people situation and just journaling

This entire process has worn me down. She has so much hate for me that it boggles my mind that she is the one who wanted this divorce so how am I to blame for everything in the world?

I had a good amount of time away which was much needed but still thought about her way too much while on a work/mini vac. Everything I was doing kept reminding me about how we did this and that together on vacation...it was sad. I snapped out of it after a few days but what a waste of time that I can't get back

She continues to not want to finish things off so we can move on...for the divorce. There is always one thing she won't agree on...then another....talk about me being a control freak!

I hope these setbacks of emotion go away soon. I do well for a few weeks...then get bogged down in wanting to have her back...only for her to do something that puts me back into resentment mode saying how did I stay married to her....then back to missing her.

maybe once out of site....out of mind?