TK, can I suggest you watch the Shawn Achor TED talk on happiness and also consider buying one of his books? Adopting his strategies for happiness may help you.
Also, June is about to begin and I think you need to come up with a new GAL plan for yourself. One that will get you out and about, linking with others and recognising there is a life to be lived - whether or not your W chooses to be in it.
So - two potential things you could try....how's about it my friend? For a while - I made myself come up with a new regular GAL activity per month - these included a book group, divorce workshop, ladies social group, volunteering in a charity bookstore, yoga, aqua aerobics, gym, salsa, calligraphy group...etc...
My XH ran for the hills sadly, but I have a full and happy life (apart from some residual sadness about the D) regardless. You can do it if I can.
Xx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus