I'm sorry TK. For the most part it sounds as though you did really well and we all say things to loved ones that we regret and an apology and honest chat with D13 will resolve things I'm sure.

I think the position to work towards is one where you are not dependent on the company of your children, or women, or booze - to make you feel good & able to cope.

So, how can you start working towards building up a life for yourself with some good friendships and activities to pick up on those times your kids aren't with you.

Did you get along to AA this week? Xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus