Have i been making mistakes too long part 8

[tkdmme]

I posted the details of my weekend earlier this morning but wanted to elaborate a bit more.

So, Friday night I played piano at a local bar. Not many folks showed up. Willie Nelson was playing down the road and most of the crowd was out there. Anyway, as some of you know I have been trying to stop drinking and have done ok for the most part. However I did have 3 beers on Friday night. I was disappointed in myself that I couldn't get through the night without caving in. Other than that , the night was uneventful.

Saturday morning took my s11 and nephew to play golf. Had a great time! I dropped him back off at the STBX house.

This was my weekend to have the kids but STBX sister is in town and she asked if they could stay there with her and their cousins. At the time it seemed ok.

So Saturday night I did nothing just relaxed and watched some television. However I really started to miss the kids. This weekend was the second weekend in a row that they were not with me.

Sunday I went to church and thought the STBX was bringing the kids but she changed her mind last minute. I asked if I could take them to lunch and she agreed. So we had lunch and then they wanted to come over to my place (the marital house). once there I could tell they were sad. I have been packing up things trying to get the house ready for sale. They told me that being there made them sad because a lot of their things are packed up. They stayed for a while and we watched a movie. Around 5:30 they wanted to leave. This upset me because I was hoping they were going to spend the night with me. So I took them back and returned home. Again just tried to relax and not get upset.

Memorial day I woke up early and picked up s11. we went to Lowes to get some material to finish his tree fort at the STBX house. She was really acting distant and wanted to argue over what we had planned for the tree fort. So I finished and left. I worked at the house for the remainder of the day and at around 8is I tried to call D13 and got no answer. I tried STBX she sends me to voice mail. This goes on until 9:30 when STBX finally has the kids call. This is where I feel awful. I told D13 that I was going to cut off her phone if she wasn't going to answer it.

STBX called immediately after and yelled at me not to take my anger for her out on D13.

I was up all night feeling like a scum bag.