Working on me and letting it play out

[cbtdad]

Just an update on things.
W and I still in separate bedrooms. We are getting along great and laughing a lot. Our communication is so much better. I've really learned a lot about my verbal abuse and how it has affected our marriage and made my wife numb. It's something that is going to take a lot of work on my part. I still don't know if it will save my marriage, but I can't constantly worry about that.
I am continuing to focus only on the things that I can control.
I do not mind read, bring up R, or temp check.
I am just living in the moment with were things are currently at.
I do realize that this is going to take time. My verbally abusive and controlling ways brought my W to place that will be hard for her to trust that I can change. I now see this clearly.
As I say all the time this is a sprint not a marathon.
On a positive note her actions, other than romantic, are all positive. Even things like asking if we have plans for 4th of July. Scheduling family trip at the end of July. Things like that which wouldn't be happening if she didn't think things would improve.
Only time will tell. For now I will be focusing on me and the things I can control.
Headed to the river with my S for a couple of a days this afternoon and I'm looking forward to the time with just him and I
It's so much fun when we get to just get away the two of us