What Should I be doing (4)

[Coconut]

Sandi, that may be the case, but it's not how I feel it is. I don't feel I'm upset because I was putting energy into it, I needed to put energy into my life and I see that as the best thing that's come out of all of this. I think I'm upset with the timing because she said she always loved me, she says that she never wanted to leave me, she says that she always wanted us to work... But she waited until we had our first real talk in two years, one that really addressed our issues, and then instead of being willing to work on us she went to someone else to spite me...

Anyway, something I gotta work through.

So I went to bed around 1130, told my son and W to not fall asleep on the couch, W said she wouldn't was going to bed soon. I woke up at 2am, saw W wasn't in bed, so I went to couch to go wake her up, but she wasn't there. Went to spare bedroom, she wasn't there. Went to sons room, just him in there. Back to MBR, see her phone was on nightstand, but her side of bed was still made.

Chkd phone, and saw FF call had come in about twenty minutes earlier, and I saw her purse was gone. She's never left her phone at home, and would be a good way to not allow find my iPhone, so I drove to fire station. Her car was there, but the big Doors where all shut, so I had no way to know if the truck was in there or not, so I parked across the street and waited. Truck came back about 10 mins later, and W and 3 others came out in about 5 mins and all walked directly to the cars and left. I then drove home, and W asked where I had gone, I told her to see where she was, she asked did I see the call on her phone, yes, but I didn't understand why you left your phone at home.

She was annoyed and didn't talk to me after that, went to bed. I woke her up this morning, said goodbye when I left.