It's still a relatively new situation, so don't be too hard on yourself. If you can, try and do the very basics to get through the day (eat a little healthy stuff, wash, go outside, speak to people).
None of this makes any sense to me either, so I wouldn't worry about that.
My H just ran away, and left everything here. I started feeling weighed down by his stuff (I also had the sneaking feeling he was just going to leave it all here), so I was the one that packed it all up and arranged for his mum, and then his sister, to pick it all up. There's nothing of his left here now, and it's a huge relief.
I've found this whole thing has really messed with my playing. My sound was all over the place for months, and I didn't sound like me at all any more, It was like the core had gone out of my sound and it was a flaky shell of a sound. That has never, ever happened to me before, and it was really scary. Anyway, I just pressed on, playing a few scales every day and trying not to judge what I was hearing. Just observe what was happening, how I was feeling, and not judge. Things are better now.
