Have i been making mistakes too long part 8

[tkdmme]

Thanks, focus,

I actually use the calender too. And I'm doing pretty good with it. Her things are everywhere and she refuses to come get them. When I tell her I need it gone she gets mad and tells me I'm weak and selfish. I do feel weak but not selfish. It's like she expects me to bounce back and be fine with things after 16 years of my.

I still don't know what caused this. Is it om, Mlc? I just don't know and that's the worst part. I was not perfect by any stretch. However I was faithful, a great provider, a great father, and I was never abusive. It's so confusing and I go through ups and downs frequently.

Some days I'm fine and accepting it for what it is and others I just want to stay in bed all day. I miss my kids being here with me.

She wants me to sell the house but it needs some repairs. I'm doing the repairs but not fast enough to for her.

I rarely get angry but I did last night and told her what I thought about her decision and effect it is having on our children. She seems to think that they are fine with all of this. They tell me they want us to be together and that they are in pain.

I didn't sleep last night. I'm literally laying in bed now and will probably be here all day. I don't eat right any more. I have lost 40 pounds and have no clothes that fit. I'm am constantly worried about what she thinks of me.

I'm just tired.