Some days are better than others

[EDF]

Wife got me a birthday card and left it out for me to find. Message inside was "hope you had a relaxing day", signed with her name and the cats. Just names, no "Love,". Not reading anything into it.

Weird day overall. She seemed to alternate between distant and friendly. We each did some of our own stuff, we went for a walk together, had some pizza and watched TV together. It's a weird sort of dance where we generally don't really invite each other but one will say they're doing something and perhaps the other says something ambiguous like "that sounds nice" or "I had been thinking of taking a walk later too", and then the other might mention it again with wording that is leaving the door open without quite being an invite, and the other person maybe tags along.

It goes in both directions. I try hard to not always bite when she leaves a quasi-invite and try to do plenty of my own GAL stuff without her but I don't want to completely shut her out since she has had much less contact with OM; only sporadic mundane messages. That's how I rationalize it to myself at least I guess.

I feel I struggle at some elements of detaching, but other aspects I've been solid. Haven't initiated a text or phone call to her since... At least a month. Haven't initiated any physical contact since I confronted her about A. Haven't had any R talks since early April when I started DBing.

I'm doing better at not snooping, and have been going 2-3 days at a time without, but still a work in progress.