continued detachment, anxiety, and joys of limbo

[Painter]

It's not a fun process. It's hard to clean up the broken pieces from the floor, but I guess we have to. Personally, I do better when I have concrete tasks to handle - if I can calculate finances, figure out how to deal with a contracts, research - that makes me feel more empowered.

I notice there are a lot of other/new people in your life and I wonder if that might be why you're feeling better, or at least coping better than you expected? You have support and you're not alone, and you can talk to someone about your situation (and some can give you real advice).

It sounds like you have a good day set up for tomorrow. Can you go with someone to the symphony? Now you got me thinking I want to look for outdoor concerts... The weather here is so nice.

Did you do any more planning for your road trip?

Son and I did some nice things today, I can tell the fresh air makes me feel better. He came and picked me up for lunch at work yesterday and we ate outside, and I was able to eat an entire bowl of soup. Today, I ate a burger for dinner! Felt really hungry after a walk at a dog park that is a little further away, but much bigger (9 acres).

Otherwise I've had a crazy communication with WH but I've posted that in my own thread. I feel like I live in an episode of 20/20 or Dateline.