continued detachment, anxiety, and joys of limbo

[Phoebe]

He can always hope, right Ggrass? (unfounded optimism never stops a lot of people) Plainly he eventually realized he really was a fool to leave you. HIs loss.

I'm hanging out at my place today, but I've stashed the car in a place that's hard to see from the road. Yes this subterfuge is ridiculous, and probably not worth bothering with. I have to ask my new bicyling/lawyer friend if I should just break down and call the process servers back.

Also entertaining the idea of calling H to ask him what triggered the legal process. He said himself that he wanted everything to be discussed and agreed upon if we went this route. None of this makes sense. Still no reply to the email I sent him.
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back a while later:

Well, I just spoke to new bicycle/L friend and he says I shouldn't call the server. I should let them track me down and earn their pay without making it any easier on them. He also recommended a specific L to talk to first tomorrow. He said that when I get whatever papers the server is bringing that he will review them for me. New friends can be good things, huh?

So, today has been a surprisingly reasonable day! My appetite is poor, sleep is meh, but shaking is manageable. Tomorrow may be a different story, but I'm rolling with today! I talked to three people on the phone, had breakfast with my mom, and then my dad helped me install my air conditioner, so a whole lot of positive social contact today.

Tomorrow morning, time to contact yet another lawyer. Sigh. I so enjoyed my time outside the circus tent. I knew it couldn't last forever, but I was hoping for a little longer. A girl can dream, right?

Then I see my therapist in the afternoon, most likely a hike at my new favorite park, and then I think I'm going to a concert in the evening for something a bit new - a classical wind offset of the local symphony.

GAL and get a L????

Hope everyone had a good day today.