continued detachment, anxiety, and joys of limbo

[Phoebe]

Ok, in my posting chaos, I missed your post, SH!

I've been dodging the possibility of an encounter with a process server this weekend, so I'm staying away from my place as much as I can right now. I know they'll get me eventually, but why ruin a perfectly iffy holiday with another slap of reality??? My parents went to my place to work a project. I decided I had some stuff I wanted to do, too, so I had them leave me there and I told them I'd call when I needed a ride. (no car in the driveway = stealth mode). Just one flaw in the plan - I left my phone back at their house. Oops.

So, I was stranded with no car and no phone, so I walked to their house (and my car) which is a bit over 3 miles. Car's totally fine, by the way.

The reason I was pinned down in my car after that was because of a torrential thunderstorm. I went out to buy a couple things and had to pull over it got so bad. I happened to pull into a McDonalds, so I thought I'd get some lunch, but it was too awful to open my car door. So... I stopped in to see how everyone was doing here.

Yes, I'm good at making a long story… even… looooongerrr! Sorry 'bout that.

Anyway, I'm not particularly angry, even now, but I am starting to feel like I'm moving on a bit.

I talked to my friend's lawyer friend for about 40 minutes tonight. Only part of that was about my sitch, and the rest was about biking and skiing. I think I may have found another possible new friend, and I'll take every one of those I can gather up these days. He Invited me to bike with him, so he may be my new biking friend. My possible hiking friend get together is next week (I was supposed to hike with her Tuesday, but the silly legal monkey wrench got tossed into the ring and mussed my plans), and I have a new waking and talking friend (who introduced me to the L).

This L is not a divorce attorney, unfortunately, but it's still cool that he's willing to advise me and recommend L's I should talk to. On a holiday weekend, no less.

Feeling cautiously optimistic in the making new friends department.

I don't know about being edgy, but goofy I can do, and that f-that meditation tickled my funny bone. Still laughing about hearing it playing when I tried to call my therapist! That was great.

Now I need to try to hit the hay again. 'Night everyone. I hope you are all asleep already. Only crazy insomniacs are still awake in this time zone!