I have a change of thread name about every ten threads, it was originally my intention to move to surviving the big D, my thread here doesn't get much traffic. For a number of reasons not least because my D process isn't finished, there will be another 10 threads.
So a brief update
I made a late marriage with a difficult man who had a great deal of compulsions.
This included spending what would be 10 years of my earnings in 6 months, gambling, smoking, drinking and womanising.
I estimate at least 5 OW to date.
I originally dropped the bomb about 6 months into the M, deciding to walk then DB. XWH went off the rails in a big way, ranting, spewing and intimidating.
I am a WAW who DB her R.
It has been a hard and tough journey and I acknowledge there were times when I turned into a screaming banshee.
My financial position is very poor and I live from hand to mouth and am better than I have been for several years.
It is very stressful at 62 to deal with a man who sees me as an easy target.
The D part of the D is finalised although I await the paperwork to reassure myself of this.
The Financial part of the D has not yet begun.
As far as I am aware he is living with a married Italian diplomat in Italy (Maggotroni).
I have been NC with xWH for 12 months after he left the MH on 2 May 2015. Although he kept turning up at random times to collect things. I only allow him to contact me through my L.
I am very afraid of xWH and he has said he intends me harm.
If I knew with hindsight, which is a wonderful thing, them there are many things I could have done differently. My journey would be different and this learning experience would not be mine.
I decided to be very open about my journey as I still suffer episodes of complex PTSD which are likely to be with me for life. If you want to read a long struggle with detachment and a wandering journey then you will find that in my threads.
There is a long way to go and I am not ready to move to surviving the big D, so I stay in Newcombers.
I would particularly like to thank those members of my tribe who are still here in Newcombers
Greengrass whose voice and sassy have assisted me on my journey so much. I thank you my red kick ass healed DB friend.
RD whose patience and family life give me hope and inspiration.
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To those who have moved to other parts of the board, particularly, Sotto, SunnyB, Dawn, Maybell, Mahhty and Mozza. Together with the forthright Zues.
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To those who have been part of my journey, Edz, Jim, Pigpen, WhyUs, Zephyr, Uturn, Joe, MCS, Mutatio, Fo, Jellyb, Pink and so many many more.
For those who have suffered with abuse, Zelda, Ancaire, Schermann and the wonderful Mustardseed.
I offer gratitude and my enduring thanks.
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With my current tribe here some of who are ahead of me on the road and others who need a gentle hand, some here and some IRL, I value you more than I can say. I will keep posting to you.
There are others still struggling like V, that's you Ghost! Thank you for keeping on keeping on.
My deepest respect for the vets, Wonka, Sandi, MrBond, and Cadet.
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There is always a home on this thread for my fellow DB travellers.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
