Out of In house S- Start of two homes (10)

[vise82]

Hey,

Just came back from soccer. I made more of an effort to talk to people this time around. I think half of the team is from the winter league and the other half plays in the summer. It was good to get the exercise.

I just feel stuck right now waiting for W to come around. It been a year I would prefer to be with her but I am wanting to connect with other people I have been thinking.

I have not yet at this point and i think that must send a signal to W how much I do love her as she seemed to question me on it. I have been remaining true to her for all this time and I think that reflects how much I care about her. How much I value the years we have been together.

Thats why it mad me sick to just fluff her off on helping her at her house. But I get it. It makes sense.I cant just let her treat me like this and expect things to be ok with me.

I know these are normal feelings and I need to be comfortable with my self but not having that special someone to tell the details of the day to or plan to do things with is so missed. I think It will be even more so once I go on my own.