No shame in that, your going through a emotional time, it took me all my energy just to get out of bed this morning, even thou I'm on holiday with my 3 kids! Tough times, keep strong mate, you are not alone!
Me: 40 W: 36 T21 M17 S12 D10 D10 ILYBNILWY EA happened. PA happened. June 2016 trying to piece our M and life's back together...
Yeah I'm falling asleep okay but waking up early, as soon as I open my eyes my brain starts ticking and I can't shut it back off.
I'd advise you to read Divorce Remedy. It will give you some peace of mind, establish clear goals and help you focus on yourself rather than what she's doing. I'm on day 8. Haven't cried for 4 straight days. If you need a little more motivation, here's some: If you're in a rut 24/7 and whenever she contacts you, she sees you broken down, it'll validate her choice because THAT is who she THINKS she's leaving.
Me: 35 W: 32 S: 4 T: 6 M: 4 Physical Separation official: 5/21 Currently: DR/DBing, Focusing on me and son
Cheating on a good person is like throwing away a diamond and picking up a rock.
I think I've come to the realisation today that my marriage as I knew it is over and if I'm honest I don't think I want to go back to how it was. When I take stock of everything it was quite one sided and I was the one doing the majority of the work.
If me and my wife were to reconcile I think drastic changes are required from both of us and if shes not willing to do that then I honestly think I would be back here again a year down the line.
My wife phoned me moments ago as the lady who looks after our children mornings and afternoon while she goes to work has cancelled indefinitely.
She was phoning to see if myself or my parents could help from time to time with picking the kids up from school to help her out. I kept the conversation purely focused on the topic at hand and offered whatever help I could (not much as my work hours do not allow it). Is it wrong of me to feel slightly glad that she is struggling without me?
My wife phoned me moments ago as the lady who looks after our children mornings and afternoon while she goes to work has cancelled indefinitely.
She was phoning to see if myself or my parents could help from time to time with picking the kids up from school to help her out. I kept the conversation purely focused on the topic at hand and offered whatever help I could (not much as my work hours do not allow it). Is it wrong of me to feel slightly glad that she is struggling without me?
Yes, it is wrong.... Because your thinking about her and not you and your S. Set a plan so you and W know who's picking him up, don't use your son as an excuse to reach out to her...
Your six weeks in Kyle, you really need to stop what your doing, accept what is going on and turn your focus on you. Also, is there any chance you have depression, have you talked to your doctor, if you have depression get treatment, you need to be of sound mind.
Don't keep on the path your on, it will not end up where you want, turn all of your focus on you and your son.. it's a good path, you just got to do it.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized
Very early on I sought out my doctor and was placed on anxiety meds which have now run their course and I have not been prescribed anymore, I am also 2 sessions in to counselling but they seem to be very much focused around my wife.
I fully intend to be there for my children at any opportunity but unfortunately my work situation means I can't offer any support with regards to picking them up and dropping them off at school.
I've also spent a lot of time looking through posts on here and have noticed so many differences in my story to that of other people.
I have noticed that a lot of the folks on here are still living under the same roof as their spouse and because of this are maintaining some degree of contact. I also have no evidence of an EA or PA whatsoever nor do I believe there is. I guess I'm just trying to say I'm struggling to relate
You may want to read my threads. No EA/PA, She moved out about 2 months after the BD. Our only contact is related to my d5 and that is barely, because she can not be grown up enough to have a conversation about that.
Anyway, I have not read your entire story, but trust me my friend. There are enough similarities to someones story here to match yours. It is very much like a set scripts with minor differences.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
