Still here and need support

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poschan,

As for materials to read or review, I want to recommend that you seek what is relevant to you.

Share with me things that you are struggling with now and I can provide some ideas.
Share with me things that are a part of your list for things that you want to improve based on your self reflections during this ordeal and I can provide some directions.

The things that I would encourage you start with as I think they apply for all LBS are Ted talks by the following,

Guy Winch
Shawn Achor
Brene Brown
Matthieu Ricard

Also study DB/DR

It will take time, but time can be our friend if we study, meditate, practice, fail, learn from the mistakes, serve others, be kind to ourself, forgive ourself, take care of our children like they are the most precious thing on the planet. Because they are.
Keep going when it gets tough. Recognize the small successes as well as the big ones.
And pray. Pray like you have ever prayed before. But be sure that you share gratitude more, then ask for blessings. Blessings come from being thankful and providing service to those who are in more need than ourselves.

My prayers are with you and your family.
Be well today my friend, and may you find, no may you make moments of joy for you and your family this day.