[BrightFuture]

Hi 2T, thanks for stopping by. I’m still in disbelieve myself that first, H remembered the color, and second, that he did this. H was creative like this when I met him and for the first few years of our M. This is when he wanted to impress me or do something nice for me. Then this gradually dwindled down, as he lost interest in M, I suppose. It became a chore for him to even cook a meal once a week. And even then he would pick some nice gifts for me. A couple years before the BD, he was just always stressed about the holidays like my b-day, Mother’s day, New years, when he had to give me a gift. It probably took an enormous effort for him right before the BD.

H didn’t get me anything for my B-day right before the BD 4 years ago. He apologized and sounded very stressed about it. He also didn’t make an effort to fly home (from his work state) for my B-day. 4 weeks later I got a speech and BD. I don’t think he gave me anything for my b-day a year after that. He always sent the cards, except for the last year. He also called. But, never sent the gifts…

So, this is kind of significant in the way that he “remembered” how to get creative. It could be that he decided to do this because it is the milestone b-day. I think I am trying to talk myself out of thinking that this is some kind of sign, so I don’t have my hopes up again. The downside of this though is that I also don’t feel any urgency to acknowledge this gesture.