continued detachment, anxiety, and joys of limbo

[Phoebe]

Well, still crying. Still shaking, but not hyperventilating,so that's something I guess.

I'm such an idiot. I never did fund that individual account I set up, so if the accounts lock, I've got very little access to money. I've already gotten the "I told you so" reprimand from my dad. Empathy is in short supply around here. I just didn't want to start the financial tit-for-tat cascade that often starts when one person starts moving money around. Even H told me I should move some money over to it. Feeling so f-Ing stupid. He deserved none of my trust and yet I still gave it to him.

He is not a good person.