continued detachment, anxiety, and joys of limbo

[Phoebe]

Well, my happy place is coming to a very abrupt end. I came back to my home this morning to find a crappy green construction-paper-type business card on my door indicating that I am supposed to call some group about a legal issue.

So... I am about to be served. I am pretty angry. He couldn't be bothered to send me an email, call me, anything? He also did it on a holiday weekend to be sure that I can't contact and retain my own attorney for days? i am beyond disappointed int this human being.

Just had a complete breakdown, had my therapist on the phone for 20 minutes tearing to calm me down. Still doing really badly. Xanax taken, but no relief.

SO calculating to do it on he first day of a holiday weekend.

The man I though I knew is gone.

I can't breathe very well. Waiting of my mom to come over, but she's not here yet.