Sandi, for me there has been a pattern emerging. When there is a gap between contact, I get this collection of texts usually of information about the kids that really isn't necessary with no questions. I don't respond to these since there really is nothing to respond to.
I feel so much more comfortable with myself, enjoying the space to rebuild myself and add the new parts to becomeing a better me. I haven't concerned myself with what she is doing, and if I come across anyone she has contact with, I just be that happy person I am becoming and don't ask anything about her. It is so much more refreshing to feel this way. I had to hit rock bottom myself a few months ago, but feel so much better now.
I actually have a cat at home and he follows me everywhere at the moment and as soon as I sit down he is over in a shot since I'm hardly at home these days.
I have no expectations that W will return and am OK with that now, I will be fine either way!
