Thanks guys for your comments. I really appreciate the opportunity to vent and get help as I have no one else to talk to about this.
My husband does have a very important work deadline that will be over in 2 weeks so I am just letting things ride and trying to get along for now so he won't have any more pressure on him - he's got enough going on now. But I find myself having dreams about not being married and waking up wondering what is going on in my head. Is this normal? I would never dream of ever ever cheating on him and yet I think so much about other men.
also, as far as the HCTZ issue, I asked my doctor ( who is an alternative med doctor and has helped me so much when it comes to menopause) and she said HCTZ is notorious for causing sexual problems. I believe this is a physical issue because my mother-in-law has even mentioned in the past that my father-in-law didn't touch her for almost 25 years. The problem is that H won't get any blood work or visit a doctor about this. He did a few years ago and his doctor only asked him why sex was so important to him! Boy, that didn't help much! He was even reading a diet book that mentioned problems with ED at his age and suggested testosterone cream. My doctor said she would be glad to prescribe that for him but only if he came in for a visit and had some blood work done. So I nagged for a few months about it and once again, he did nothing. Also I mentioned that maybe he was depressed, could he try something for depression and he was adamant that he would not. Well, I'm not a big fan of anti-depressants but St. John's Wort was a great help to me but he won't even consider that. My mother-in-law is on Prozac - there seems to be a big streak of depression on his side of the family but he won't deal with that issue either. So I'm rather stuck in a rut here with him. Don't have a clue where to go from here. Maybe when I can calm down I might actually read more chapters from SSM other than the chapters that I use to commiserate with!
