14 days of sheer hell, part 7

[DDJ]

I'm dizzy myself sandi. This anxiety is the same that I felt before I think she first cheated.

I don't want to feel this anymore. In terms of putting my foot down. I will do so tomorrow. I will tell her to comply or I will divorce. As for letting her back in to MBR, it was mainly a joke to try and speed things up. Was not going to.

What I do know, is that all the advice I'm getting is confusing me. Give her freedom, drop her, watch her cheat, focus on yourself. Putting my foot down is the only thing that has had any effect.

As for her moral compass, she comes from a very bad place. Very very bad. Every single family member is wayward. Everyone. I know that I don't have the strength to "save" her and myself. I must choose one.

So, will sleep on it tonight, cry a bit and tomorrow is the day I drop her. Any which way this goes. Emotions or not. I refuse to watch this carnage any more.