Yes Cadet, she is telling me exactly what i want to hear. I will tell her that "I will just watch your actions". That's all.
I guess i'm going to have to be patient and wait years for this to be fixed, i can't see that far, i really can't. But do i have a choice, yes i do. Do i want to take it. No i don't.
As for the house issue, the truth is that if i were selfless to my son, I would not break up what is left of his family unit -more than what his mother has already done. I can achieve my goal of detachment with her in the next room, in my face and even next to me on an aeroplane.
I guess that I am trying to get a reaction from her, to speed up the process by making her make the D or S decision. I do know that both of us don't really have a say about where we will end up...
Everyday is a lesson and everyday i accept the lesson.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
