Hang in there RSG. No better place to throw out your thoughts. Don't throw any at her just us! And don't forget to add to others threads, because you reinforce your own beliefs when you help others.
I was/am very controlling, to the clothing she bought, the food she ate, the places we went - all me! I'm starting to learn to "lose" that control for her. I can only control myself, the rest is all noise.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.