I in the last week have had to do a time line for the r.
When I write out the whole last year of what happened and when it was one major deal breaker after another, in the sense that he was threatening me with harm verbally, he was acting in a way that covertly threatened harm ie having loaded guns in the bedroom and under the seat of his car. He wanted wills written with me leaving him sole benificary to all my worlds goods including the child he assaulted. He wanted to holiday in remote off radar locations where murders have been committed and no body ever found.
That crazed train knew no bounds. ^^^ I'm open to anyone who says there is no way I should have left, because at that point with an ow, I was all out of options. Did I wish it different yes. Did I try to make if different oh yes, I was almost hospitalised early on when I came here because I was mm from a compete emotional break.
I hurt so bad I couldn't even read any advice here without sobbing. It gets better we can all understand the regret.
The best advice ever given is is ok, your feelings are yours it takes as long as it takes and what ever the time line it will be right for you. Don't stress give your self permission.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
