The start of my happiness 5

[Tyler12]

She still has a lot of anger with me. It's impossible to discuss our boys right at this time without her getting angry and spewing venom when she doesn't hear what she likes.

After the summer she wants to change from week in week off to every other weekend with the boys. As she believes they are getting bounced and S3 has said he doesn't like switching so much. And that is fine. I agree that it's hard on them going back and forth so much.

However she assumes that they will live with her. And when I express my belief that they are happier with me and that I understand it won't be easy for me I think it's best for them with me.

S3 is always crying that he wants to stay with me. That he doesn't like mommy or OM house. And I get anger and venom like how I couldn't do it. And that she won't fight. She will see me in court about it. And this one was the best

"not doing this to me. I wouldnt give up the boys for the world. But I never should have gone back to you after the first time I kicked u out. "

In the past that would have hurt. Now I see it is just words of an angry woman. Still working on herself.

I was able to not reply to her venom. Tho I almost wrote back saying "I am sorry she feels that way and that she still has such anger towards me. I do only have my children's best interest at heart. ".

I have left it for now. For the last week or so I have had the largest urge to talk to MIL about it all. Not sure why tho. Just a feeling that she would understand. mIL is a woman true to her word and she told W that she wouldn't support her in this. And since W left W's family hasn't really talked to her.

I get blamed for that too. I don't want to make it worse tho. It's a long road and I feel like I am just leaving the start. Tho I know I have changed myself a lot. For the better