Placement exam went well...on to statistics class!
Still trying to move forward, but everything reminds me of H or our sitch. It's like I stretch out in a new direction and something (a song on the radio, a comment, a restaurant name, anything) snaps me back to the reality that I'm no longer in the same relationship with him.
It is evolving, but it's like PTSD, I still find myself angrily crying and explaining to the mirror why I'm mad or hurt.
This weekend I'm doing a 10k near hour vacation home. I asked (I asked!) If I could spend the night there so I wouldn't have to drive so far in the early morning. I explained I didn't mind if others were there, but if "Bubbles" was there I wouldn't. His response? "Just to sleep there, right? I'll let you know what the plan is."
It still makes me mad that I'very lost everything and have to create a whole new life, new job, new home, new friends, etc and nothing really changes for Bubbles and her family and all H loses is me and the home. Even my kids are losing a lot. I cry "unfair"! But it is what is I guess.
I'll just have to pull my big girl panties up and keep learning and living. Bluhhhh.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
