A Glass of Myrrlo

[Lyrael]

OW, OW!!! Okay, okay, you're right, Bill. He didn't put up that away message today, but sometimes it really does seem like he's testing me.

I am, quite simply, terrified. Do I need to just stop this train of thought, or consider it? I would appreciate input here. What if my H really, really wants out of our relationship, and he is just terrified of taking that last step? What if the only thing keeping us in this situation is his current indecisiveness? What if our M is the "devil he knows" and miserable as it is, it is just hard for him to let go? What if he is trying really hard to love me and want me, but deep down in his heart of hearts, his feelings are gone?

Wow, I am really driving myself crazy here, but at least I am posting it and am not on the phone talking endlessly at H.
AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!
(Primal scream therapy)
Okay. I feel a little better. I am feeling a little crappy (AUGH, I have a trip to go on! No cold now!) so I am going to take some cough medicine and hit the hay early.
Hugs to all (and thanks again, Bill for the 2x4),
Myrrh