A Glass of Myrrlo

[Lyrael]

Ohmigod-
H was working and away from his computer, and he came back from away, then put up a new away message. It said this:
"Hi, my name is H and I'm out pimping hos. Actually, I am sitting to Laura and Shelly bitch about wanting some food. Go figure..."

I, to be quite honest, flipped out and called him. AUGH! Okay, going to have to stay off AIM. I need counseling or medication or something, maybe all of the above. I wonder how much this will set us back. Why do I always think he is doing something shady?

I said I was going to my apt, and he was all "WHY?" I regained my composure after he flipped into "I don't care" mode, and said "Maybe I am just taking this all too seriously." He said "WAY too seriously"

Anyone care to lay bets on the man sleeping at his shop tonight? AUGH...and again, AUGH!

Damage control plan:
1) Do absolutely nothing having to do with H. I need a mental break so bad right now. I don't feel like talking to him right now. I really don't.
2) Gracefully accept any snide remarks in the next few days or pessimistic statements regarding our M/R. It really pisses him off when I get upset about stuff. Fair? Not really. Fact? Yes. This is the reality.
3) Just keep on - go get some things from the apt, and settle in for a night alone at the house. If I plan for it, it won't surprise me.
4) Try to calm the hell down and quit beating myself up.

FACE THE FEAR!!!
Myrrh

P.S. Every night is a chance for me to be different...will tonight be the night I can finally do it?