I have never wanted to be more alone, in my life. Like I've said, I've always had someone, from the womb. I've always just attached myself.

I'm not considering her feelings at all. I will make sure that I Gal with our son at every opportunity. He will see that his father loves him. If WE make it through the year and end up together then he will have two parents that want to make things work. If we drift apart, then so be it.

But I'm doing this for me.

Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.